The Winds of Change

I have been thinking all week about writing this blog. And since it's been almost a month since I last posted anything, I've got some serious blogger brain going on. (You know what I'm talking about... the longer you go without a post the more you tend to start writing them in your head and then leaving them half finished, only to start a completely new one the next time you have more than half a second to think your own thoughts. No? Just me? That doesn't happen to everyone? Okay, never mind then.)

So, it has been my intention to do an "update" post for more than a few weeks now. I got a phone call (quite a while ago, might I add) from my sister-in-law, Stephanie, who was convinced that my lack of an update on the pregnancy endeavor was for sure a sign that I was pregnant and holding out on everyone. I had to reassure her that that wasn't the case, and I became aware that perhaps there might be others out there thinking the same thing. Well, time kept passing and my well-intentioned "update post" kept getting pushed back, and now I find that my updates have changed.

Okay, just to keep everyone in total suspense, I'm going to start with the job stuff. Seriously... you all remember my total craziness that has accompanied me throughout this job opportunity with the FAA. Well, we finally heard from the them. We knew he had passed the test, and we knew that he might get contacted for an interview. The next thing we got was an e-mail telling us that he will get contacted for an interview, but keep waiting until further notice. Then we got another e-mail saying pretty much the same thing, but from another department. This happened about three more times, until finally we got a phone call from someone who, heaven help us, is actually located here in Albuquerque. After a week of trying to actually make contact with this guy, it has finally been set. Rick has an interview on Monday, and now my anxiety over the unknown has started to turn into anxiety over what I do know. We've heard from a few people that have gone through this process before that if you make it to the interview stage, it's pretty much done. The interview isn't so much an interview, but a meeting to make the job offer. So, while trying not to get too prematurely excited, we are definitely feeling blessed. I'm not even going to go into how totally freaked I am about the fact that if Rick gets this job, then that means 6 months of training out in Oklahoma City. Six months that may or may not take Noah and I with him. What was the distant future is starting to hit a little closer to home. I choose to remain in complete denial about this aspect of the job.

So, in total Jennifer style and just to mix things up a little bit, there is one more tiny bit of update that makes things kinda crazy. Like I said, my every intention was to let you all know that there wasn't any news on the baby front, and up until very recently, that remained unchanged. Yep, your eyes are not deceiving you, just last week I found out that I am pregnant. It's kind of a funny story, with lots of details that would probably be too much information, but suffice to say that somehow I managed to be "trying" for 5 months and still be completely shocked when it actually happened. I'm not very far along at all, and probably would never have made the announcement so soon, but I get the distinct feeling that the timing of all of this was soooo out of my hands. I was deathly ill thus far into my pregnancy with Noah, and seriously thought I was going to die throughout the entire first 4 months, but so far this pregnancy has been kind. In fact, there are moments when I even wonder if I'm really pregnant at all. I pray that it remains that way. I fear that Rick will get this job and have to leave his sick, pregnant wife and 2 year old for the majority of my pregnancy. I fear even more that he'll get this job and things will continue to move in the snails pace that they have been all along, and he'll have to leave his not so sick but VERY pregnant wife with a 2 year old and a looming delivery without him. Okay... and that's my cue to embrace my denial and stop thinking about it. At least for now. In the mean time, Yay! I'm pregnant! We're very excited and although I haven't been to the doctor for an official date, the baby will probably be here sometime in mid-July.

Well, that's enough update for now. I'm sure I'll have oodles more to talk about after Rick's interview on Monday. Stay tuned...